Hello to all who've missed me in my leave of absence. I had realised that my artwork was not upto standard so i've worked long and hard improving my photography and drawing.

Some photography is already up and hopefully drawings will follow quickly Thanks for all the support!

vampire-pigeon
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Sorry to all who watch me and await my work...i am gonna shove some of my work at a friend to scan in and send me so i can post them....

In recent weeks my heart has felt lonely yet happy, my limbs have felt weary.....yet my mind has grown and spread further than i thought it ever could.... my intelligence has finally caught up with me and i am beginning to see the world in a way that i think everyone should.
You may think me a lunatic and that i am rambling due to some freak head injury i have suffered in the time that i have been inactive on this site, yet ive never felt quite so....free..... My mind is wandering to the far corners of the earth and yet i have not set foot there physically.

To those of you who enjoy my bewildering actions and my 'slightly' strange nature, no worries!! Because i am always here to give you a laugh.... All that has changed is that i understand everything a little better.

You're probably thinking this is the weirdest phase ive gone through since when i believed i was a rabbit called george in search of a decent farm to live with my family (joking, joking.....kinda) but im completely serious in everyway possible, and i cant explain it.....bummer eh?

Due to my recent 'epiphony' I am perkier and my fetish for carrots has completely vanished I dont know what to do with myself now... but i at least know who i am.

OMFG!!!! For the first time in months im actually HAPPY

I just decided that after half term, i was gonna turn over a new leaf and TELL myself that im gonna be happy.....and it worked!!!!
Im on a diet to lose this flab pile that i call a stomach, and i feel really healthy, therefore happier.....i have so much more energy since i started eating healthily!!! Even though my stomach isn't dissapearing straight away, im hopefully on the way

Although i am happy, im still really frustrated at guys.....im ALWAYS the friend.......never more......it sucks!!!! They're WAY too good at screwing with your feelings and not knowing it!!! :angry:
DONT WORRY!!! im just gonna have to deal with it....maybe when i lose weight i'll be MORE than a friend for once

LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!

Over and out.

Becky
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Right well, reasons why my life sucks:

Number 1- Im moving next year, and there is no way that i can get back to Twyford. So im changing schools, homes and im gonna have to leave my friends........im gona miss you so much.....i cant begin to explain how much i love you lot.....

Number 2- Guys suck!! Guys i like either end up liking anna (best friend), confess they liked me AFTER they stopped liking me OR i become their friend.....which happens alot....cos i've got BRILLIANT social skills, and i can just walk up to a guy and talk to him :flirt: ......but i always end up being 'the friend' be it a close friend, a best friend, an aquaintance.......its always 'friend'.....and i cant control who i like, girls usually cant, but guys have this special power to like who they want and when, and when its most awkward for everyone else.......FUCKED or what?!?!!?!?!?!

Number 3- Coursework finds the exact right time to wriggle into my life and mess up EVERYTHING.......it's like keeping baby cousins under control....you think you have them all under control, but then one of them gets hold of the hoover and reakes havoc all over everywhere and smashes everything.....so when you go to get the hoover and put it back, all the other kids run away and follow the other's example until you've lost track of everything.......(good metaphor, eh? )

Number 4- I just cant keep up with everything!!!!

Number 5- my mum is nagging me to death and i just cant deal with it at the moment!!!.......i hate it!!!!

I could go on forever but i think i've bored you enough for one day......so i bid you good nite!!

Nite nite
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Becky

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OMG!!! Last night was the nite of the latest gig. I was filming again so i had to get there about 2pm. We ordered like 10 pizzas for lunch.

First up were this indie rock band, they rule!!!! Then Richard stevens' band was up (i forgot the name) Then i think it was 'Incinaration of a cheshire cat' (also with Richard as the bassist, and Alistair, our organiser of these gigs). Then another band then the one and only OMEN featuring Oliver, Joe Scott and Charlie Noon!!!! They rocked. But the highlight of the night (for me anyway) MUTANT were up!!!! They are my alltime favourite band (including most PROFESSIONAL bands) THEY FUCKING ROCKED!!!!! And between you and me, Tom, the frontman, is fucking BUFF!!!

Afterwards i got a big hug from the members of Mutant for filming the whole thing, so of course NOTHING could ruin my evening after that , not even Rachel Baker being pissed out of her head and me having to stick her head under a cold tap